I feel i should break up with her

I love my girlfriend a lot i really do. However, I feel I should break up with her. I feel conflicted because I truly do love her and i enjoy being with her but we just don't want the same things and have the same ideas on what a healthy relationship is. Our relationship is toxic and we both know that. We have talk about it and we have been able to make it work and I think we will be able to make it work until either of us really really fucks up, so i think i don't have to break up. 

I also feel like we should because we just don't want the same things, I want to be more private and be romantic in private while she loves to go out together and wants to kiss and hug in public. She also does not understand that because Im autistic I have sensory issues which means that I don't want to touch all the time and it feels like im the bad person for not wanting to hug her. Im someone who is very sensitive and she says it okay that i cry a lot but at the same time it feels like if she doesn't think it's justified and she just acts annoyed.

I am not going to say that im so perfect and she is a horrible person because that is not ture. To be honest I am much worse; I have mood swings which makes it much more harder for her to talk to me. I dont understand social cues so she can get frustrated when I have to ask her to explain something to her. I don't enjoy surprises which she loves I tend to appear as ungrateful, which I am not trying t be because I love the thought. It's just that I get stressed from it and it makes her sad. 

I have much more things but it would be bitchy of me to be like "ooooo, im such a bad person and O don't deserve my girlfriend" which I fee I don't but I just want to know if I should call it off.

-lollygag blog