this school is FUCKED UP

this was made in a google doc while i was sitting in rc. i am now in online school.

I can’t text or anything in rc so im js gna speak my mind in this doc. Ik this is dumb asf but holy shit i am so angry i could smack myself out the window js for a lil chance that i might die from the fall down. I was born here in the hospital down town. ive been living in south dakota since i was 5 and moved back here when i was 12 so i never had the chance to really get to know what its like here on a day to day basis. But holy shit. The school here is FUCKED UP. its kinda dumb for a 16 year old to just sit here and rant abt their school bcuz like who doesnt do that? But i’ve been going to school since i was 3 and plan to go into college for business which will take abt 2-6 years so i feel like im super qualified to state my brutal ass opinions abt this shitty school. And i can tell you from all of my 13 years of school that this place is fucking insane and ive never been so unhappy in a school my whole entire life. Holy shit i actually dred it. I am so very fucking excited to move back cuz oh my god i want my junior and senior year to be farrrr from the experience i had here.

The whole reason why im here is bs too. This whole school can go to hell for all i care. I dont care if this doc is ever found by sum higher up and js use it against me to get me into even more in trouble bcuz do yk what? I’ll be glad to take ts all the way up to the boss of the bosses here bcuz i have a few words to say. I’ve been to this school ever since i was in 7th grade and i genuinely dont think that ive learned anything at all for these passed 3 years. I thought that maybe it was school in general but then why can i name all 50 states off the top of my head when i learned it 10 years ago when i was in my old school in south dakota. And i also heard from a teacher that state testing this year is one of the worst ever. And it really isnt just the academics that is complete bullshit but just the way that everyone, including the admin, act is actually insane. Maybe its because im in a rez but c’monnnnn can we have a little bit of pride in our culture? I mean what happned to the 7 grandfather teachings that they were preaching in the first week of this school year? the admin can give me js a little ounce of RESPECT. Ill talk abt the students here too bcuz why tf do i hear abt 5 different fights happen every single fucking week. I even heard abt a fight in the elementry school? An ELEMENTRY SCHOOL????????? I remember the beginning of this school year when i was so worried about the fact that hoco is gna be canceled bcuz of all the fights that happened in the first 3 weeks of the school year. I especially have lots of experience of the way that the girls act in this school. If you do anything ANYTHING even if you BREATHE wrong your ass is gna have so much girls harrass you. I mean ive had a fair share of these girls harrasing me. These girls would messege me and threaten me but i don’t even wanna get into that bc the whole point of this writing bs is to make me calmer. But i will say that the girl who’s harrasing me is in NATIONAL HONOR SOCIETY and GT. fucking ridiculous. Ive had girl after girl after girl harrass me and spread crazy ass rumors about me. SOO crazy to the point where im afraid the police will be involved. And even if you do apologize, online, or not they WILL post on their snapchat story calling you a bitch and say that ur dumb asf to think that you can just apologize and get over it. They are so stuck up on drama and are sooo ready to beat the shit out of you if you even look at them a little weird. And the boys. Oh my god the boys. Even the teachers. They are all so very rude and disrespectful.  the weight lifting teacher is creepy and has been here for YEARS despite all the stories i hear from students and adults alike talking about how creepy he is. Why tf do i hear every semester abt these parents forcing their daughters to drop out of weight lifting because they know themselves about how creepy the teacher is? AND my FAVORITE teacher, the band teacher got fired for KISSING KIDS?? and the little boys that are running around rabid are actually insane too. Theres always rumors about all these boys touching their little sisters and trying to force themselves on top of girls and i don’t even know how to begin to report it bcuz i dont know if its actually true or if its just more rumors bcuz i wont be surprised bcuz i also had a completely FALSE rumor spread about me being creepy to one of my friends. At least the masses know its fake bcuz she said it herself that its bs. i also have experience abt being on the other side of the rumors. I reported a kid abt a rumor of him being creepy towards women at a party. When i did report it cops were obvi involved but didn’t do anything but laugh and joke with the kid. And when i ask the sophomore counselor abt it she said “Oh well you can say that about any boy around here.” i mean ig its true but WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK????? Your not going to do anything about it??? Your just going to sit there and dismis all of this information i put on you abt one of your students being a creep???? Nope. nothing. Its been 7 months and nothing was done about it at all. And speaking of the counselor…i am actually terrified of going into her office bcuz of the way she and all of the admin treat me. They are all so sarcastic and always have sum to say. Ok sure maybe i will “talk back” but i only do that because i feel the need to stand up to these shitheads bcuz of their bs rules. The whole reason why im sitting here in rc writing all of this out is because i have a crop top on. That is the reason. A FUCKING CROP TOP. I will now tell you the whole story in detail js bcuz this is a GLIMPSE of what you see in this school. Okay so the story begins when i walk into the school. Ive been dress-coded one more time before this and so i get scared so i put on my sweater. So im in geometry doing my work when all the sudden i get called up to the office. I saw that it was at the end of geometry so i pack my shit up and go the the office. I thought that it was abt the harrasment im dealing with so i comply. But then one of the admin says  “Ig you know why your here especcially since you have ur sweater zipped up.” are you FUCKING KIDDINF MEEEEEEE. I put on a sweater to make sure i dont get dress coded and i end up getting dress coded anyway. I get hostile ofc because the admin imedently has to be sarcastic and sassy. I tell her “uhmmm no?? I thought i was here for the harrassment ive been dealing with.” but then she says. “Uhmmm no? You are here becuz you are being dress coded so we have to bring you home and we are going to have to have a meeting with your mom.” (BTW IDK IF THATS STILL GNA HAPPEN) so im all confused bcuz im obvi wearing a sweater and i get even more hostile bcuz this is actually bs. So i get mad and go off abt how this whole fucking school sucks and i just want just a little bit of control of my shitty life and my appearence is the only thing i can actually control and have an escape. I mean there is a reason why i get up at 4 am and cake my face. Its because i feel so calm and so free to do whatever i desire to look like. Thats the reason why people get tattoos and dye their hair crazy colors. I like how i can do what i want to my appearance. But ANYWAYS. The princaple doesnt do anything abt it obvi and just leaves. So its me and this other admin in his office and she asks me abt the harrassment and gives me a notebook to write what happened. All i say is “god i just wanna go home.” and she says “ofc i can get you a ride home.” i finally feel a lil bit of relief until she escortes me into the conference room where marilyn sits. Oh my god i didnt wanna js turn around and run out of the school so bad. I sit down and im like “what” bc i already hate marilyn so bad. And she says “theres a teacher that says that you have been wearinf crop tops every day.” and then we js argue and i say i want to go home. Marilyn says “uhm no you are going back into class or you are going into rc.” so i get even more mad and i say “uhm no jessica says you are sending me home so send me home right now.” and i tell her abt how i feel so unsafe in these halls and how much times ive heard of people fighting and how she doesnt do anything to try to stop it. So she yells “OKAY SEND HER TO RC WITH NO CONTACT CONTAINMENT” and starts laughin. LAUGHING. So now thats why im here and not to mention that when i got into rc the teacher said “dress code huh? Girls ways walk around in crop tops i didn’t even know we enforce that here still.” i cannot believe that in this Native American reservation school is going by the same code by the same people who took our land. The fact that this colonizing patriarchal standard that puts down women is in this school. The fucking couruption is so fucking mind boggling and i cannot even begin to understand what the actual fuck is going on in this school. Im surprised it hasnt gone up in flames. Ive never wanted to kms more than now.