Im back or am i? how life is going and iinterests

I got on some new meds i barely wanna rage quit anymore. I've still been sad tho its been rough and I'm never feeling satisfied and talking to people is hard.

I'm doing dry January but like with other junk too and I'm so ready for this month to be over. I'm confused all the time I wish that I could do things the way other people are able to. It's a really difficult to understand why I feel like I'm so different from other people and I wish someone could just tell me what the matter with me is and give me magic meds that can fix me.

Anyway, I've been really into Spider-man lately. The new Spider-verse is a masterpiece and everyone should watch it. I love Hobie very much. I've been really enjoying Irondad fanfic recently and its been good for me I think. A lot of that comes from cptsd stuff and wishing that I had had someone who cared about me and was strong enough to protect me. I'm finding some community in that as well through a discord server which is nice. But my favourite Spidey right now is Kaine. I wish more people wrote fanfic about him. He's so cool and feral and cute.