⚝ 004 ﹒01.29.24 ﹒🩰

writer: 🩰 dollace !

hello chat i got up eariler today ! 

it was hard, and i had to fight sleep a Lot but i was up before noon and was getting some things done . which made me feel accomplished ! 

i’ve recently been trying to get into silent hill, because mt dear friend toby has a special interest in the series and i must say . it sure is . a series . if i have to hear about someone birthing , fighting , and killing god one more time  iswear to god . silent hill sure is a series . 

i want to write more today , since my writing last journal post was pretty lackluster ... uhm .. i’m currently writing this post with my eyes closed, since my eyes are hurting and i know my keyboard well enough that i only need to open them to check for mistakes every once in a while . so there’s a fun fact about me i guess hehe . 

struggling with pretty bad pain and fatigue today though, i will admit . i have a migraine right now and it is just killing my willpower to do anything at all . which is not good, since i have to do chores around the house still and haven’t really left bed yet . 

i know i need to get out of bed , and i plan to , i just really don’t want to , especially not right now . hell i might end up taking another nap before finally getting out of bed, since the pain is affecting more than just my eyes . 

i think this is the days of nonstop working on projects coming back to haunt me, but also i don’t want it to be because acknowledging that means thinking , and thinking means remembering . 

trauma should die i think . no more trauma ever for anyone . problem solved , no more problems ever . 

seriously though, i’m going to stop writing for now and take a nap. i need it.

1:22pm

alright ! nap taken , feeling a bit better now. procrastinating on doing some chores but that’s just how it is i guess pfft - i’ll get to them eventually , i will . 

still don’t have much to write about at this juncture . just know that i want to write so i am . 

i’m trying to get some planning done for both meye ocs sycamore and azalea and for meye neocities !! both are kind of taking up meye attention right now , and to be honest i’d rather it be those two than literally anything else at the moment .

i’ve never really dabbled in serious web design before and its exciting ! eye’ve made codes for toyhouse , which eye haven’t touched in months - and also messed around a bit with carrd embeds and coding , but that was also a bit too frustrating to work with . but that’s ok because neocities offers the complete creative freedom eye’ve been looking for , but too afraid to try out , for a while ! so now eyem doing meye best with learning how to use html / css , and who knows , maybe eye’ll make spacehey layouts eventually too ! 

regarding ocs though , eye find it both esepcially fun AND especially difficult because eye am writing meye own continuities of the original stories , which has been something eye’ve wanted to do for a while but never really had the motivation , ideas , or drive for before . 

hopefully eye will be able to finish both stories ! eyem really excited to try , and now that eye’ve started using a more effective writing program eye’ve felt more of a drive to write now than ever . sometimes it really does just take the right equipment to get the job done ... 

aside from that eye’ve discovered an old cycle alter in meye system that eye definitely did not think existed anymore . but this is great because said cycle used to be an integral part of meye system , and losing prn had eye in a bit of a frenzy . luckily prn seems to be ok with going back to being an important member of the system , so eye think that’s all gonna work out :D 

i’m gonna try and get up to do my chores now ... hopefully i won’t pass out while doing them , pffft . wish me luck ! i’ll probably be back to update this entry or write a different entry later !