her

im so tireeed.. and im not even fully over my ex gf but i know she def is. i think i only broke up w her though cuz she kinda started treating me like i was js some person. she'd respond in a dry way to me but everyone else she'd respond js fine to. favoritism was going on i think, she'd always use the excuse shes tired but it seemed like that was a lie. most of the relationship those last few months just felt like a lie

which made me believe everyone was lying to me

... which led me to attempt multiple times. 

i wish the relationship went forever that was my plan , or his plan at least and it still is. he's a big issue but we cant get rid of him , might just end up back with her somehow again but this time with only one person in the system.

the one who really really loves her no matter the circumstance. just as long as they're all gone , he'll be fine. but i'd rather have her be happy.

"what if she isn't over us yet?" he's trying so hard to find a way back with her but the more social media accounts we slowly start to unfollow the more pissed he gets. he needs to understand how to let go. that took all of us a while to do.

i've explained to him multiple times that he needs to let go and this is unhealthy.

"you'll come crawling back eventually, i know it." that's what he usually tells me. we used to be friends but not anymore. i decided to cut off our friendship after how he acts. 

he scared her multiple times im worried for him. we tried getting him the help he needs but he just keeps getting worse and worse. poor poor xi.

"dont worry, i'll be connected with you once again... you're nothing without me. you said it yourself."

i'll try providing updates but anyways, i've been really sick as of late and im really really tired (not new information though..) achoo :(

whoever sees this tho, hi :) have a good day 2day dearies <33