contractually mandated platonic relationship (im finding a loophole out)

Shipped you a record 

Hope it reaches you before I do

Would you rather city nights 

Or quiet frights 

Midday goes away 

No I won’t explain myself 

I want to steal the smiles from your face 

You can’t be happy without me 

Pathetic I know

 but better than other emotions 

I could show 

What does this all mean 

Too much work for the lines in between 

For my enjoyment or for real 

If this what you thought I would like 

You don’t know me anymore

or that my bruises have healed 

I hope the rain pours make up for all the 

Kisses you made us miss

Call me back when the candle blows out 

Trading locks instead of keys 

Will you still drive me around 

Or have all plans crashed 

On fire like  cali trees

I’ve had many first loves but you’re the worst 

I want to say you were the best 

but I'm trying a new thing called lying less 

you should try it 

One more week your present from me is

Complete silence 

Genuinely not even wishes 

Will escape my lips 

My glance is the best you’re getting 

Free except for emotionally 

Taxing you worse than i’ll ever pay 

I’m rich with discontent 

But poor with trying to disconnect