Touch (original date it was created: 2/4/2023) // tw s/a

I thought I wanted it.

(please don't touch me)

I thought I could handle it.

(I don't want to do this)

I thought I was in control.

(Stop it!!)

It's too much, I'm not ready.

(Stop it! Please, stop it!!)

I'm no longer clean; I'm filthy, dirty, used up.

(Stop it! Stop it! Stop it! Stop it! Stop it!)

The physical touches may have stopped once I got out of the car, only been in it a handful of times. But as it drove off for good, I will never forgive him as the trauma will forever be with me. 

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