i have never felt so surrounded

it feels weird, and its not even that i dislike it (maybe when they get noisy i do, but just a bit), i love my friends, but sometimes i feel like i cant talk about everything cause theyre there, i cant talk bout my creepy stuff cause theyll get scared, and i dont want to feel alone again,but im also scared one day ill shut my mouth and ill never open it again cause it feels like the wrong situation.