feeling alone

hello everyone, les here!

today is my lil sisters bday! and were having this super cool party right now, my big sister also came, shes super cool. we get along really well despite being the literal opposite sides. im a goth w a strange fashion style and she is a super pretty "basic" girl. i mean, she dresses like that, but she pulls it off quite well. i respect her fashion sense, as anyone should. anyway, shes super social too and gets along with everyone. i on the other hand am the more "weird sister who mostly hides in her room 24/7", which theyre not wrong about, becuse im hiding in my room right now writing this entry! she gets along with my siblings more than i do. oh, and the reason i said "my" is because were actually step sisters, but i always forget that since it always feels like were actual blood related sisters, same with my little sister. im not gonna explain my enitre family tree but anyway, it isnt her fault, but i do feel alone, maybe because im insecure? i remember getting really jelly of her getting along with some of my friends, straight up ignoring them in my earlier childhood. ive grown since. i went to school and such. learned manners and the alphabet and whatever. theyre having a lot more fun right now without me, maybe i ruin the mood with my gloomy and weird look? what do you guys think? should i stay in my room till the end of the party and let people have their fun in this cool party?

cheers to my little sister! ,

les