i hate you but...

I hate you but I can't hate you when all I do is miss you. I cry, sometimes, in the early mornings thinking about why I lost you, what I did wrong because I'm sure I'm to blame and even though this sounds like I want to hurt you, I always ruin everything, I never succeed. people who love me or take me into account. Although I loved you to the point that I would have given my life for you, because you were very important to me, but why did you have to push me away when I was giving everything for you, feeling humiliated by a show of your affection? but now you are a strange girl who passes each other in the hallways knowing that at some point in their lives they used to tell each other everything and be there for each other. Before you were considered a best friend, now just a stranger. But don't worry, it will be here if you feel lonely and decide to come back because it will always be that way. I love you.