Are we...being stalked?

I have a stalker.

Wow, you guys are getting a lot of content today.

Anyways.

I know what you guys are probably thinking... those that know me personally are probably like: "What? Another one?!" and everyone else is probably worried.

So let me back up a little....

A couple of months ago, in a state of chronic depression, I let someone into my life.

BIG MISTAKE.

Okay, let me back up even more.

Yay reader, you get to know more about me!

My friends consider me a player. I consider myself cursed.

This always happens to me.

I have mentioned in other blogs that I tend to lose interest fast, but I swear it’s not my fault!

There you go again, cinepaola, with the victim mindset.

I will be attracted to someone, talk to them, and then they become obsessed with me.

WOW, WHAT AN EGO.

However, I always tell people before anything goes further that I do not want a relationship and that I will not like them in the way they want me to if they develop feelings.

I give them a warning.

I ask if they are sure before anything else happens.

Surprisingly, some of them are smart and say no, but there are always the ones who stay and swear they won’t become obsessed or fall in love.

So, anyway, that happened with this person; honestly, my lowest point because they are not even my type at all. This is going to sound very mean girl of me, but I am honest. I only gave them a chance because I was lonely.

Obviously, there is more to why I felt that way during that, but that is intense lore for another day. 

Not even two weeks passed before they were introducing me to all their friends and saying they wanted something serious and were in love with me.

IN LOVE WITH ME? I DON'T EVEN LIKE YOU.

Keep in mind I always told them I didn’t like them like that.

Always.

Anyways, that person has now been stalking me. I became friends with their friend group; we are kinda close, actually, and they (the person not the group) have been stalking and telling the group every place I go. They know my routines and everything.

Look, I know this makes me seem like the bad guy. Trust me, I am well aware. However, if I was really the bad guy, would the rest of the group be siding with me? I mean, when I rejected them after literally less than two weeks of us hanging out, they became aggressive, which is why the group is siding with me. They witnessed it, they witnessed them trying to get me non-sober, they witnessed the passive aggression. They witnessed the stalking. It’s insane because it’s to the point that on Christmas, this person was standing on the corner in front of my house while my family hung out in front of my house. They just stood there, watching me interact with my family. I can’t even leave my house because they live in my neighborhood. They tail my car. This is a person who normally doesn't drive, but suddenly one day they started driving again and have followed me ever since. If they see me leave my house, they tend to go to all my favorite places, and then tell my other friends that they're there to try to confirm if I'm also there. They have listed everywhere I have been the past few weeks to my friends too. 

I tried to be nice and remain friends, but it’s insane. I had to block their number because of the nonstop calling and messages. The worst part is this person knows a bit of my history; they know I had stalkers before and thus why I had to move and that I get panic attacks.

I am not trying to be the victim here. I know I shouldn’t have gotten involved and that the way I was using people as my getaway car was not right. However, I did let them know. I didn’t leave anyone in the dark, and I gave them the choice to prevent it.

So is it really my fault that I didn’t want anything more?

How do you expect something more from someone who never had time for you and only saw you on her own terms when she was lonely?

Someone who literally told you she was using you to fill in that void so don’t catch feelings?

Someone who told you that everyone knows her as a player?

Is it really my fault if I gave you many warnings not to get attached to me?

So yes, I have a stalker.