high& dry

(thisisfromsunday(?)) i am not-doing the english&history homework i should be doing sorry to my professors and sorry to later-tonight-me

NOTHING OF ME IS ORIGINAL. I AM THE COMBINED EFFORT OF EVERYBODY I'VE EVER KNOWN--INVISIBLE MONSTERS, CHUCK PALAHNIUK.

when you are young and you are small and you sort-of want to disappear completely and youre wound so tight like a rubber band thats about to snap + break i hope that someone will be warm. anoldfriend or someonesomewhere you did not expect (someone new someone painfully earnest) and you unravel later in your car just-over take care, get home safe. (butnotjustthatisit?) or messy and gross and sobbing in front of them and they continue to be warm andcontinueandcontinueandcontinue in the small ways that sort-of-mean-the-world

you are trying to be older than you are and you are trying to be smaller than you are under jackets and sweaters and boots and jeans and speaking-less and hating when you do and its not enough its not right you wish you had the hair to hide behind you wish this-whole-thing would disappear completely. 

(nowthisisfromtoday--)

JAN 25, 2024

i hatelove writing and i hatelove sharing but posting something terrible is better than nothing-at-all

hello-handsome-stranger (copyofacopyofacopy) 

the thing they don't tell you about community college is there is no community at all. quiet + lonely i see familiar faces all the time. this can-not be good for me

(softly. earnestly)

heyboss can i go home?? i think I'd feel betterbest if i ripped my guts out and held it all bloody-gross in my hands. i think i am going to pass out or at least fall hard on my knees

i am sorry for the eay that i stare

(hands and thighs) reallytrippingmeup!