Lost my oral virginity a few days ago in my HS bathroom

And then I did it with him again the next day….. it was alright, but like kinda underwhelming. Mainly bc he was like oh let’s just start with the sucking part right away no like build up. And like he didn’t do anything…. I was the one choking. BORING and I think he is trying to ghost me in that dumb way men do where they think they’re being nice. Like just communicate and tell me if you want to stop hooking up like a normal person and don’t pretend to want to be friends with benefits without doing the friend part. Maybe I’m reading into it but then again like all he wanted was sex and he was desperate and I never thought I would get an opportunity to like actually try it so I was like oh like well I can’t just say no but meh. If you couldn’t tell, I like to over share and infodump but I know this is just going into the void.