[RANT!!] Depression is no joke.

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I know there are some people like to fake having mental illness for attention, but until they realize how fucking horrible it is. Let me tell you, depression is really fucking horrible, diagnosed or undiagnosed. I have been depressed for 5 years now, I still haven't gotten a diagnosis for depression even though I show clear signs of it, all because therapists believed I didn't understand it. They thought that I was joking. Well, I will go off on why I hate when people joke about depression.

Being depressed has made me drift away from people socially, and I am losing interest in everything I love and enjoy, I don't feel myself as much anymore, I feel like a different man. All the time I feel like I can't complete my schoolwork, art pieces or my tasks in general, I lost all motivation. It is such a hard struggle, I don't get how people can fake it for attention without realizing how actually painful it is. I can't even get out of bed or take care of myself without struggling hard. I find it difficult to even eat breakfast in the morning without having someone to encourage me, or to get dressed properly. Being depressed is like carrying and dragging tons of weight, it is really difficult to keep going. If you could experience that, being depressed as a joke wouldn't be a fun anymore. It's painful, all of what I said, that's reality of being depressed. It crushes you mentally, emotionally and physically. My gender dysphoria adds on to it, so does my school life. Everything about being depressed makes it difficult to do anything in life, especially doing basic tasks such as waking up or sleeping. It's a living hell.

What I'm really saying is. I really don't get how people can fake depression for attention, it's annoying, self-centered and cruel. Just put yourself into my point of view and then you will understand that your joke is a living fucking hell. This joke of yours is why so many people go undiagnosed every year and that's a huge issue!

Thank you for listening to my long ass rant, but it really needs to be said more! I really had to get this off my chest.