Rants / TW - ATTEMPT MENTIONED - SH

I really dont rant online anywhere unless its with a friend, but i feel like its safe to do it here!

Ive been recently diagnosed with (IDD) and other things which i dont really care about but its making my aunt ( primary guardian ) super overprotective , such as 

Taking my phone 
Took away my whole TV
I have scheduled days out 
Not allowed with locked doors, not even to change or shower!!


I get why she is being like this but it just messes me up, before she would never bat a eye and tell all my secrets to the family and try and gaslight me. Ive told her once ive tried to take my own life and she just goes "oh now i have to hide everything and now everyone will question me ".. no? Just dont tell people and instead of being concerned and stuff she goes "ok? is tht all?" My whole mind just went blank with that.



Attempts arent ... uncommon (?) in my family as with my dad and mom have both done/tried it, my mom surviving. My aunt also blames my mom and grandmom for all my issues because "they feed you lies, and blah blah blah"

She also is kinda .. idk -  i feel like she had / has some problems on her own, everyone does but it doesnt give her the right to belittle me/ everyone else.


Ive had midterms for 4 days straight from one class alone and i have 10 assignments due on the same day from one teacher ! I have 6 other classes with anatomy being one which is lowk hard if im not mentally there or something.


Ive broken down crying in my classes more than i can count and this is only my second year of it, i even prompted a damn mental health club to be made because someone saw me crying after class ( love the teacher who let me stay with him) 

idk tho- i feel like i have it easy sometimes and i hate ranting because i feel inconsiderate - yk>-<