A poem <3

Warning: topics such as death, loss, and cheating

This has no rhyme or rhythm or anything really. It's just a spew of feelings that a character from one of my stories had. A pretty major character in the MC's life, but very little was actually known about him, this was something 'he' wrote after the death of the MC. 

His name is Solace and yes, his name did have meaning in the story (if you want to know more about it, go ahead and comment what you want to know! I'd be happy to answer any questions.)

"You" is referring to the MC, Azrael. !!also is not edited. So, sorry if there are any mistakes!!

"When 'Forever' Had a Meaning"

It's crazy how fast things 

Can change in just a year. 

One moment you're talking with

The love of your life, 

And the next

You're wishing you could say

'I love you' 

Just one more time. 

How one day you could recite

What you want your future to be

To anyone

And the next you aren't sure if you're

Making it through the day. 

You're saying your first I love yous

Then you're saying your last goodbyes. 

Back when you thought you had

All the time in the world. 

When you didn't have to hide your hurting

So people could live when you couldn't.

Now you're stuck wanting to live.

You want life 

To hold out it's hand for one more dance

But you know...

You know death's already taken it. 

You know your siblings would feel awful

So you bought them all gifts.

You made sure they felt loved by you,

Even if you wouldn't be their favorite memory.

You let the love of your life slip

Out of your grasp

And fall into someone else's arms,

Strong ones,

Because you felt too weak to carry 

Both of you. 

You knew something was wrong,

Yet you hid it from your loved ones

Because you didn't want them to hurt

As you were.

You were hurting. 

You were in pain. 

You were getting weaker every minute.

And yet you told no one.

No one but a stranger in an alleyway.

The stranger cried for you when you had no tears left.

He let you be heard and seen. 

You told him all about your life. 

The one you wished would go on. 

You talked all about your family and friends

And lover.

You talked about them

As if it had been your one sole purpose.

You called him your brother,

Even when you'd only known him a week and a half

You told him about your past. 

You told me him about when 'Forever' had a meaning.