pointless by wagonman

I don't know why I'm the way that I am

Maybe I'm missing something from the days of porn watched 

Chasing that next dopamine fix of pressure or love

It changes my vision 

It's powerful stuff 

The pointless swipes on dating apps, multiple profiles made 

All to find that lucky squeeze

But would they really be lucky?

Would they really be lucky with a manlet goblin who can barely hold on to his own

Messages from my mother left unheard because I'm as dense as a blackhole 

Sucking up information everyday yet I still don't know the meaning

It's not like the conversations I have over dinner or in the car

Asking what am I doing wrong 

Or what am I not doing to feel complete in the spiral of this thing called life

Why can't I push myself to become better 

I say I have the keys yet I fail to turn them

This life is really pointless