i want to do something that matters

i want to feel like the things im doing matter i have ideas...but its so hard to get myself anywhere, to do anything i want to do but i think all you can do is just do shit, badly and scared. you can't get hung up on the how's and when's at the same time it helps to plan shit, you can't do everything on a whim and expect it to turn out good does anyone else feel so isolated it's like rotting you inside out. unrelated. actually pretty related oh well another day another ditch