i'm going to start a lil' online diary here ⊹₊｡ꕤ˚₊⊹

I need to write about what happens in my life, just to keep me accountable for my goals. I do think that writing it online for anons online makes it more fun, ngl, so that will make me more engaged with this.

oh, and English is not my first language, so there may be many mistakes. Aveces puede ser que me ponga a hablar en Español tambien, upsis.

Let's start by today: I was going to go out with a college audience, try to make friends... but, I couldn't. I got so scared, what if my mind went blank? he is a man, what if he actually has more than just friendly intentions with me? oh god, I wish girls liked me, I want girlfriends so much, but only guys want to hang out with me... well, the point is that social anxiety got the best of me, I was half-dressed up, my make-up was done, and I got terrified. I texted him that I was feeling ill and I couldn't make it there, and I just turned off my phone, I was way too embarrassed.

Uhmm... next time stuff will turn out better, I can do it, I've got so much better with my social skills. This week I will try to expose myself to more social situations, just to get out there.

That's it for now, thanks for reading cutiesss (*ᴗ͈ˬᴗ͈)ꕤ*.ﾟ