shark's gut, online diary ♡ pt 4: unmasking at the function

this diary entry contains: unmasking talk, a bit of a vent, you would say. 

today is sunday, january 21, 2024, its 1:19 am, and its nice outside ˙ᵕ˙

dear diary,

hello there! i'm not in the best of moods, but i'm manageable. today was nice. got to see my friends, ate pizza, laughed, the usual. until something shifted, i think... 

i started feeling weird, it was strange. everything became too loud, too bright, too hot, too everything, and i started stressin'. my partner took me out and we came back home but it was... weird... i wanted to stay but i didn't want to bother everyone else...

i don't know man, it's hard being autistic and being loud while also having loud friends. i love them, of course, but it's a bit too much sometimes! ahaha.... what a dilemma... 

i'm listening to a lot of video essays. right now, it's about the Who's Lila? game, it's pretty cool. i'd say i'm a guy who likes to think and enjoy different things a lot... that sounded soooo self absorted loooool 

i'll continue to watch it, i'm not that in the mood to write a lot haha :'p 

that'd be all from me today :3

── lots of love, cassian, who's hungry