Silly Writing about Love ☆

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20/01/24 -☆ Isn't love beautiful? It's the most intense feeling in the world if you ask me. It makes you feel everything, like if all your emotions are in a mix. The pain, who hurts like hell but it also feels addictive; The happiness, that makes you feel alive and dreamy; And how about the empty in our chest? The fear? The angry sensation?; It's like a dream and a nightmare at the same time. You can change the scenarie in just a few second and don't even realize, the world is just a concept, everything change in your pov. It's so tragic and dramatic, but also awesome.

20/01/24 -☆ Sometimes, love can transform people's heart and soul. A person who was used to be cruel and terrible, can become a beautiful one but, what if a lovely person transforms their emotions? My big sister as change since she got a boyfriend. She used to take care of me, listen to my problems with a lot of patience, she used to be like the mother i never had. I'm a little worried. Not for me but her lifestyle. Even if I miss her old personality to me, my ""mother figure"", I miss more when she was happy all the time. She looks more angry than before, she gets furious w me a lot, don't listen to anyone (friends, family or any relationship), what I should do? She's only happy w him and that's okey, but what about me and my sisters? The beautiful friendship we had? It's gonna go direct to trash and end like that? I don't know. I wish she don't look at me with these eyes full of sadness.

21/01/24 -☆ Oh, my dear sunshine, I miss you so much. You fall apart too easy, so quickly, It was so unexpected but at the same time, obviously. At least to me. I wish I could be more by your side, share more time of our short and tragic life with you. You was only a baby, my dear baby, my child. The empty in my chest when I remember your face makes me hurts. The love of a mother when she lost her own kid have no explication. Why you and not me? Is the only thing I can think. My dad, your grandfather, thinks I'm crazy. "It was just a little bird, Isaac, is not a real child" but he would never understand. Because I lost my children in every timeline, in every world, in every universe, and in all of these it hurts in the same way. Bart, if you someday, read this, please, don't leave me again. I lost you in a lot of forms and it makes me feel a terrible pain. I can't continue my life if this happend again. I can't. I'm so scared to be alone and lose my dear babies, I love y'all so much, I love you and your siblings. Please, don't leave, no without me.