How I’m feeling atm

So like I’m good but I’m not? Like I’m feeling all the emotions at once and like I can’t explain it. When I get happy or excited it feels really fake and an act , but when I’m sad it completely ruins my whole week and when I’m mad I get impulsive and have sewerslide thoughts. And I’ll really start loving someone or liking someone then they do one thing wrong I hate them i ghost them I apologize repeat. I don’t do this on purpose it just kinda happens so yeah.

Pls don’t say anything rude I’m not romanticizing any of this and I’m not trying to act “crazy Baka 🐺🐺😜😈😈😈” this is just a feeling blog so baiii