Time

Weird how I feel nowadays. I know I'm not old, but at the same time it's like life is melting in my hands and I can't seem to cachet. I don't like making adult decisions, and I don't want to be one (adult). 

At the same time everything moves so fast, all you have to do all the time is make choices, and they turn good or turn bad, and you have to live with that. I wish there was a ctrl z for life choices. Maybe then I wouldn't be so afraid to exist. Also nowadays every year feels like a lifetime, and everything is just so boring. 

Time for some reason seems so primitive and futuristic. I mean it is. And is scary, the power it holds, the divinity and the mortality of it. I know I should not complain, because I have it easy, but is it a human trait isn't? never be satisfied, never be full, alway half empty, always half full.