19.1.24 - withdraw

i withdrawed the blade from my stomach 

i felt an ache within 

something i couldn't fix

something free from sin

i moaned in pain and my blood let out

but nobody darted their eyes

hiding behind blindfolds in a crooked and evil disguise 

i couldn't believe my fate as i droppped to the floor

on my knees i pleaded to them to give me no more

i thought i had finished my punishment

and that it would not be eternal 

but behold the evil cross and my pain was internal

it wasn't easy with garlic strung up and the sunlight hitting my skin

burning, turning to ashes as my figure got more slim

but when i woke up i looked around and saw the walls of my home 

i gazed at my flesh and my skin was chrome i had not escaped the unknown