I have never done a blog before, sorry if this is weird.

why can´t I stop procrastinating?

Im sitting here in my bed when i should be doing my summer reading, and I hate it and I hate myself for that.

It´s as easy as start reading the damn books, but it´s still "early" so i tecnically feel there´s no rush but at the same time my anxiety increases each day. Yeah, the common procrastination.

I want everything fast and to be perfect but im afraid when I start studying I feel like an idiot, because OBVIUSLY I don´t know something I haven´t studied and also I don´t have a good memory from just reading. I wish i had.
I know how I function, yet I´m in this moment when you start the procces of procrastination.

The fear of failing or not knowing enough when i haven´t even started, that´s my problem.