I feel dirty. #2

The next day I asked my mother when we were going to be there. She said one week, I said ok but internally I was a little scared. That same day I went out with my mother, her friend, the stepson and the niece. For a few moments I was calm, but I felt that my stepson was approaching me very strangely, sometimes he even wanted to hold my hand.

When we returned to the house, the stepson invaded my personal space, asking me things like "but do you like me or not?", "can we be friends?", "can I kiss you?" and the most worrying "do you want to play?". I said yes about being his friend because he insisted so much that he even wanted to give me a Monster in exchange for my friendship... and about playing, I accepted because he stole my phone and I had nothing else to distract myself. We played together with his little sisters (5y/o and 2y/o?) until at one point we both ended up playing, it was a simple game of catch the ball (all this inside a small room), There were times when he would throw it very close to me and say he was going for the ball, it got to the point where he would throw me on the bed and I didn't know how to react, I had gone from being happy playing a simple game to be in shock... At those moments I thought that we were still playing calmly since he was 12y/o, he touched my chest, my face, my neck, my hair... He only stopped when he heard the door open. I was left with my eyes open and breathing hard, Then I heard something disgusting come out of his mouth, "I got erect" It was the most disgusting thing I heard, I asked him what happened, to confirm what I heard and he said nothing happened, I ran to the bathroom, and I started crying... not just because he did all that to me, but also because I saw that I also liked it... or my body, I don't know. 

From that day on I felt disgusted to myself... It was a week after that hell and after a year... after attempting my life TWO DAMN TIMES I said it... at the end of November 2022. Him? He told me that there were two girls in his class that he liked, why did he like them? They had big breasts...he was disgusting and I still remember what he said, "and... are you going to talk about the ones I like?" bro... you're a disgusting. Disgusting piece of shit who touched me in front of his little sisters and manipulated me into such a way that I felt like we were still friends... DO YOU THINK I'm going to be jealous of your stupid f*ck*ng face? To make matters worse, he was an otaku... and not one of the Otakus... he was a toxic otaku.

When I told my mother that he had done all that (we were in the hospital by the way), she told me in tears that we couldn't do anything, he had already left the country.

Cash Orlando Ramirez. You are a d1sgust1ng p1ece of sh1t. I hope your defending mom d**s and you have to see what life is.