mediocre letter to someone once special

i ask myself every now and again, if you still live at home

with your parents who probably hate each other but never divorced

and "oh it makes [you] feel horrible" and yet you cant move

and in that aspect you have a lot to prove

because you are more than old enough to, 

but i think youre not mature enough to.

and yet, no matter how broken you might be

and how often you push me away saying in your ways youre free

i am ready to offer myself to pick up the pieces and put you back together once more

even if i know you wont ever call.

generally, i just wish i could tell you i miss you.

but opening our chat and saying it to you is something i can never do.

and in that aspect, maybe im just as stupid as you.

and somewhere, this has always been true.

i dont know why, but k, i still want you by my side.