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HELLO I'M RI AND I'M DESPERATE FOR ANY KIND OF HUMAN CONTACT!!!
I don't want to sound like a loser (even though i kind of am one) but I honestly have no idea how else to spend my days other than staying in bed and sleep. I want to be one of those people who go out with friends often or idk post a lot of social media and have a social life but everything is just so scary. I DON'T WANT TO BE A LOSER!!!I turn 18 in a year and it's scary because my teenager years have been utter TRASH compared to other people I know. It makes me feel sick. I want to have fun too but i have no clue how people do it because everything scares me. Talking to people scares me. Doing new things scares me. I'm tired of feeling pathetic, i want to do something about it but i have no idea what to do except wallow in self-pity. It's supposed to be 2024 where people are more open about things but i feel like more restrictions on behaviour have been set, if you know what i mean. Nowadays, people are really judgemental. (I look in the mirror and call myself a loser often.
I HATE HOW MY FIRST BLOG IS ME VENTING.
That's it. -Ri
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roan
hello ri! i am also turning 18 in less than a year and have felt very similiarly to how you described in your blog thingy. idk what it’s called i just made this account today but anyways! you are not alone in feeling like this. it’s hard to get out of those kind of mindsets but it’s not impossible. you will not feel like this forever. it’s okay to not have everything figured out yet, we have so much life left to live, so many people we haven’t met yet. socializing is hard and finding the right people is even harder, but there’s no time limit on these things. the point you are at right now is not the point you will be at your entire life. it’s okay to be confused and to feel this way, but you don’t need to put so much pressure on yourself to change everything all at once. i don’t know how much me saying anything will do but i really hope you find people and hobbies that make you feel more fulfilled and comfortable with yourself :) i’d love to talk more if you’d want as well, i was looking at ur page and we have a lot of similair interests !
skullshakerz
hi ri!
i used to be a person like you where i am completely everything you listed in the blog there. i pretty much understand that it's gonna rough and tough sooner or later for you but one thing i can said is that, you musn't worry about being perfect at everything during your first try, whether talking to new people, doing new things and etc. you will bound to make mistake but that's okay cuz this mistake will develop your character to be much more outgoing and braver than you ever was. also please don't blame yourself for being a sore loser because you yourself have the power to turn your whole life to be better now. it can be overwhelming at first but you can manage this. you will figure out what's best and what's not for you as the time passed. try to find hobbies that makes you feel at ease, explore new movies or musics, go to gigs or concerts, hangout at cafe by yourself, and do whatever stuff that makes you feel calm and easy. what matters is just be yourself. screw other people judgement. i know i won't do much but i wish that your life this year will be the best character development of you and you will achieve whatever you want before this year ends!
good luck ^_^
HELLO!!!
I'm so sorry for the late reply! Your comment was really sweet, it made my day!!! Your advice is much appreciated and I'll make sure to follow it hehe. THANK YOU!!!! <3
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