thoughts

i’m just gonna let it out and hopefully some relate 

i listen to my music and stuff and i’m just like damn society is full of assholes i’m constantly mad or yelling at someone and being destructive but like leave me the fuck alone let me do my thing i don’t really write in my journals anymore it just pisses me off and i’m like what the fuck i used to enjoy reading but now i can’t stay focused and then i do and my ocd is like three pages over and over again and it’s like what the fuck i only really feel happy with my horses i’ve been feeling so alone the past year i haven’t been in a relationship for the longest time not that i haven’t had the chances i just didn’t want it untilll one day came along this boy he has long shaggy brunette hair not what i’d usually go for but he’s just like me and it makes me so happy and his beautiful blue eyes have me hypnotized he really gets my mind off things and i really wanna hang out with him he just what i want and makes me happy i’ve always been iffy about people and i don’t like to trust them he just opens something up in me i could write poems and paragraphs about him it’s weird how addictive love can be