I'm sober but im not sure i really want to bee.

I've battled with addiction during different parts of my life, but what iim mostly addicted to now is weed. However i have not smoked in about 1 week, im not taking anyting, i drank a bit over the weekend but...i feel empty inside.... could be the Zoloft but.. idk im not feeling and withdrawls from smoking pot literally 24/7 for a decade... I feel like its just a delayed withdrawl of somesort.. idk... weed makes me feel the way i wanna feel ... not sure that i like how sober feels with my meds either. My psychotherapist says it would be a good idea to stop smokiing but i cant deal with the insomnia/bedtime anxiety,  and the songs stuck in my head are on repeatn remix freestyle idk its driving me mad yo.....