fat story abt my ex + more abt me and my life!!?? read if ur chill like dat :D

UGHHHHHGGGGHHGHDH guys .

SO my ex. i'll call himmmm,, sid. so me and Sid had a really weird year last year. i met him through some frends i made at a new school last year and he was sososo annoying . like REALLy frustrating but he was also tall and cute and had beauty makrs and curly hair and had a deep voice and just mmh, right ?? 
so i sorta fake hated him,  even as our friendgroups kinda mashed up because his best mate was in my psych class and we were becoming supr good friends, ill call him prez, so we all just became a big group, my group n prez who was besties with sid's group. it's sounds weird but ya 

SO me and sid happened to be in the same maths class, which we shared with MORE mutual friends. honestly, it was gods plan atp
anyway me and sid ended up talking a bit more and we became friends ourselves. and he's just very thoughtful nd kind and SO funny and we clicked a lil bit. so my lil attraction became a MASSIVE crush and it was scary! see i actually consider myself under the cupioromantic spectrum, as i rarely rarely rarelyyy like people romantically, so sid was actually the first boy i've liked in like six or even seven years i think . like genuinely liked. 

and it was crazy since we hadnt known each other that long. Cuz we met in feb, and when i realised i liked him it was literally march. ONE MONTH!!??? cunt. 
his birthday was in march so i helped prez and another friend of ours find a bday gift for him since we were all hanging out after school that day. They ended up making me write the bday card since i could write in cursive and they wanted it to look nice. i didnt know what to say so i just wrote "Kill Yourself (heart)" .......... in cursive >.<...
But when we gave it to sid he totally loved it ??!! and after that he made a lot more effort to be my friend, he sat with me in math and we talked a LOT ,, and he ended up commissioning me to draw him someting!! (it was the south park boys cuz we both love south park) 
anyway i was struck and the following week, i ended up telling him i liked him. I felt like he felt the same and i didnt want to waste time so i just told him yknow?? yolo??? ~/////~ hhh

he said we could start "talking" and that he found me cool and cute and kinda liked me too or smn? WHICH IS CRAZAYYY

anyway there was a fair coming up in our town so we made arrangements to go with prez, which was totally chill i wouldvee been so shy if it was just us 2, But we ended up with literally all of his friends from his old school... at least seven plus boys. wtf.
it was a less than great night. i ended up hanging out with my best gurl friend and he stayed with his boys the whole night.. i mightve cried but shhh who said that 0-0...
by the end he found me and walked me to my car and told me he lovd me :O UMMMM
like lowkey though how r you gonna ignore me all night and then say you love me?????? weeeiiiirrrddddddd.....

anyway, some other stuf happened and i was informed by him he wasnt in a great mental place to take things further and date me, cuz he still loved HIS  ex. which was fine
me and family went on a trip to singapore sometime after that and during my trip he wouldnt stop messaging me???? like it was nutz. and on one day i ended up waking up to a hugee spam from him telling me he liked me and that he was ready and that he "needed me" ERRRRMMM HUHHH?
i was suspicious so i asked if i could think about it and he said yes, and yet still asked me out every single day after that. It was confusing bec i didnt NOT like him but i thought that going back would be stupit so i was like MXSKNCJDBCHKALJDILK ykno?
and on my last day in singapore i ended up getting drunk, and coincidentally he was also drinking with his family, so he drunkenly asked me out again AND BECAUSE I WAS ALSO DRUNK I WAS YEAH FUCK IT AND SAID YEAH T~T

so we started dating . and honestly i was pretty happy!! it was fun and cute and i finally had the boy i wanted!! this was arounddd what june?? i believ?? hrmm but ya *3*

though we didnt really hang out outside of school, which is what i wantd to do.... so i brought it up with him and he agreed but didnt make any effort to make plans, 
tried to do the mature thing nd break up because we werent going anywhere and he was lowkey avoiding hanging out with me but he said hed change and bla bla bla
AND THEN. he broke up w me.
THE FCKN CHEEK OF IT RAAAAAAAAAAAAA (flames fire up from behind me in rage)

we went no contact for the last half of the year, well until october, where i convinced prez to tell sid i didnt care anymor3 becauz it was sooo awkward right ?? ALL OF OUR FRIENDS WERE MUTUAL. so me and sid eventually make up after three and a half months of not talking, and its all chill.

some stuff happened with me and prez and we arent friends anymore...... but sid and i remained alright, and recently prez and sid had a falling out too.    kinda due to what happened between me and prez, which could be a story for another blog?????????? who knows???????? anyway??????

sids told me he likes me again, since being back in contact and the same sorta went for me. we just kinda flirt, and he always talks about how he's sorry and that he cares about me and likes me and shit... 

and ya, i still like him but like ????????????? i wasted a year being so head over heels for him, and trying to be everything he needs just for things to spiral the way they did. and shit i'd probably do it again damn, jus something abt him//.......

ANYWAY phew, PHATTEST rant in the west dang. if you read all the way through, why? also let me give you a kiss mwah

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