My struggles with art

Even though I’ve been drawing consistently since I was 3 I’m literal dog shit at it (although I did stop for a year or two). Honestly I’m not that bad but considering how short it takes me to learn certain things like anatomy I should be pretty decent at this point but NO !! I just had to be depressed and had to lose motivation to draw and now I suck so much more than all my friends and it makes me what to CLAW MY SKIN OUT !1!!1!!!