Entry 10 || An Actual Dream

I usually blog about dreaming at night, but this one's a little different.

I'm gonna talk about an actual dream I have in mind for life. I think of it more like an item on my bucket list, though.

I wanna make a kids' cartoon show one day. Or at least, help behind the scenes for a cartoon show one day.

It feels like a childish dream. The first thing I hear people think in mind about kids' cartoon shows are lively characters in a bright colorful environment acting a little too childish for their own good, but nothing too wrong with that because it's a cartoon show, right?

Well, I like to think of my dream cartoon show more like a gravity falls kind of vibe. Not exactly gravity falls, but it's just one good example of it.

I watched and still watch a lot of cartoon shows and movies. My addiction to cartoons got so bad to the point where my parents had to point it out and shame me a bit for it. It sounds bad, but they honestly had a point. They were basically telling me to grow up, but they never intended to kill the passion I had (and still have) for it. In fact, they've always been so encouraging for me to pursue what I love. They simply remind me to control myself and to think rationally. 

Anyways, I love cartoons. I cherish those childhood memories of lying down on my living room floor while watching my favorite cartoon episode on TV, only for it to be interrupted by a commercial break. I have nothing against that though; it adds to the experience. I remember those moments where I'd rush into the kitchen to get snacks as fast as I can before the commercials ended and resumed the episode. I never wanted to miss a thing because I was so invested in these characters doing wacky things and going on crazy adventures because the insanity and absurdity resonated in me.

I saw myself through the reflection of my TV, and then I saw myself through these cartoon shows as a whole. It taught me that I wasn't the only crazy kid out here with an imagination that wants to go so far and beyond, even if it wasn't and still isn't the best. I wasn't the only weird kid out here with absurd fascinations about childlike wonder.

Despite all the support I get from my parents and friends, my ideas still tend to get crushed out of me all because society says it's too absurd, overambitious, or immature for my age. I'm 16 by the way. I guess that's the age where people would expect you to have some metal rock phase and start watching angsty teen shows; something like Euphoria, Elite, The Vampire Diaries, Gossip Girls, all that edgy and dramatic high school life stuff. No hate to these kinds of shows though. I've watched some with my sibling and they're all decent.

Maybe I just don't wanna grow up. Maybe I just don't like seeing that "angsty" part of society too much, but not in a way where I want everything to be all sunshine lollipops and rainbows.

Or maybe I just want the next generation of children to have that same experience I had back in my childhood days of watching cartoon shows. I want children to be lying down on their living room floor while watching their favorite cartoon episode (perhaps from my cartoon this time) on TV, only for it to be interrupted by a commercial break. I want children to have those moments where they'd rush into their kitchen to get snacks as fast as they can before the commercials would end and resume the episode (yes, I'd put my cartoon show on a TV program first, not a streaming service-- as difficult as that tends to be). 

Children's fantasies and imaginations can be crazy, but it should never be crushed out of them. In fact, it should be fueled, and I want them to realize that there are crazy people out there who dream and imagine things just as big as they do. I want my cartoon to show children that they can pursue whatever crazy thing they want to pursue. I want them to realize that they can dream big despite society telling them the impossibilities. No matter what kind of cartoon story it may be, whether it'd be about going out on adventures, solving mysteries, or living a neighborhood life, I want to prove to them that they can do anything. 

And maybe one day, I'll hear someone all grown up look back at a recording of my cartoon show and say, "this show was my childhood" or "this show was an inspiration to me", and that's when I'll know that I've succeeded.

Childish, isn't it?