life feels like its on repeat again.

every day is starting to feel the same again.

 sleep all day, wake up 4:00 pm,

 watch netflix,

 go on my phone, 

wait for everyone to go to sleep, 

get up,

 make food, 

go back to my room, 

cry and wonder why things always go wrong for me. wonder why i always get cheated on or ghosted. wonder if ill ever find someone who will treat me better.

go to sleep at 7 am.

...

Repeat.