who up yearning and shit

i keep telling myself i don't really wanna date because i need to focus on school and also i don't wanna be anyone's ugly gf lol, but i literally can't escape romance content. also i love affection and i'm not currently getting that from friends so... like i know there is a lot of work that goes into a relationship, but all the aspects make it seem kinda worth it. sexually activity, romance, intimacy etc is so so very apealling but i'm just not in the mental space to do it for real, and i'm simply not built for situationships or whatever