feeling

God ever since i can remember most days of been bad. I was in therapy for a bit but i got let go because they didn't think anything they were doing was helping. That was when i was 16. I'd like to get some help now that im older but honestly its easier getting into area 51 than it is getting a gp appointment - not to mention the long waiting list for mental health support. hnnnnnn i just wish i had some coping methods that would help at least maintain this sickening feeling. Hoping maybe blogging will help but idk.

I might just post about my day, being a system means my memory is pretty lackluster so im hoping that will help even just a little bit and hopefully maybe talking to other people about their struggles might help too. Hopefully i can look back on these blog posts and think 'man craxy how fucked up i was back then but im better now' 

man. if i had a hot sociopathic girlfriend maybe i would be a little sane lawl