update on my rapist, the court procedure, but mainly my life

I'm working on getting a lawyer. (for obvious reasons)

I finally talked to my family about what he did to me. the only one who knew abt what happened was my mom and a few of my friends. I feel better than those few months ago, but I still feel horrible. I don't even know how I made it through those months. my dad is helping find a lawyer, ally's, and other things to take him to court. I'm very scared abt going to court tho. I don't wanna see him or even talk abt him. I'm really scared with all these what if's. what if he wins the case. even though I know I'm right, what if there's a dumb sexist judge.