Same old story 1/8/24

It's been a been a year since ive posted a blog haha. For a while things were really low but they are starting pick up a little. I still get anxious all the time but im doing my best to motivate myself. I'm anxious right now actually makes it hard to type. Anyway ive been hyperfixated on Cookierun lately, I havent had a streak of playing it everyday like this in a while. Its kinda funny because the last 2 updates were the most boring ones to me. I didnt even try to do the linzer cookie event. I decorated my mini calender/planner yesturday it was fun. I finally got to use some of my stickers. I get anxious using stickers, I dont want to waste them. I bought 2 identical packs of sonic stickers so that i wouldnt get anxious when i used one but i still did 😭 . I wish i had a therapist to help me with these type of things, but would i even listen to their advice? I went to physical therapy today for a knee injury ive been dealing with for like 2 years now. (has it really been that long? i have no sense of time) it felt fun going today but I can never motivate myself to do the home exercises consistently. Motivation/laziness is a big struggle in my life actually, I have so many unfinished projects im working on at a snails pace. How do you even cure lack of motivation, what if im doomed to be a lazy goober forever 💔. Someone should make a book on how to get through life I have no idea what im doing, and if that does exist why havent i ever heard of it. That reminds me I have finals this week. Im not too particularly stressed about the test themselves but I know the classes are going to be long and boring I can't handle that. eeegh still so anxious but i just found out that machine girl is selling vinyls yay!! I can make 42 dollars + shipping right? 

okay gotta make this ending quick its bedtime I have plans to try to do personal artdumps here eventually so look foward to that maybe 

goodbye sweet dreams see you tomorrow...