i am too stupid.
i do everything wrong.
i love him. my boyfriend. ive loved him for a long time.
i just thought a kiss would fix everything.
but it didnt.
i still cant move.
i still lie in bed when im not busy drinking.
i still mourn the death of the girl i once was.
i cant even speak right
all i do is stutter when i talk.
all i do is stumble when i walk.
i feel so bad for him.
he shouldnt have to deal with a girl like me.
a girl who cant even clean her room.
a girl who cant get out of bed.
a girl who will never amount to anything.
a girl who once couldve been the perfect bride
but has drifted far...far... away
how selfish of me to take such a wonderful person for myself.
he calls me the most beautiful girl in the world
but how am i supposed to be believe that when i am so dirty?
my wings have been torn off,
and all thats left is bloodied, crimson-brown rotted scabs.
i can still feel the feathers.
squirming under the skin on my back.
im so sorry you have to deal with such a girl :(