I wish there was one gender

I wish there was one gender

Honestly, I don't get how people can romanticize gender dysmorphia and stuff like that. "Proud to be trans" or sentences like that doesn't make sense to me. Nobody wants to feel like that. I don't think anyone is happy to be trans. They want to be born as the gender they identify with, but that doesn't mean they want to be trans. 

I am genderfluid and I can't describe how terrible I feel every single day because of it. Im a girl so why can't I just feel like one? Why do I have to wake up as a girl and two minutes later I feel like a dude. And the next day I feel like none of these genders. I cried so often because of it.

 The world would have way less problems if there was just one gender man. And I know I could just pretend to be a girl to 100% for the rest of my life and suppress my feelings and who I am but I don't want that. 

I'm not always a girl and I want to be honest with it. But there are many people that just won't understand. And I get that. That shit is complicated af and I don't expect anyone without a dysmorphia to understand it. But I hate when people don't take me serious because of it. 

I'm not pretending to be genderfluid because I think its cool and unique. No I freaking hate it. I don't want to be genderfluid. I don't want to have a dysmorphia. I just wanna feel like the goddamn gender I was born with.