A mistake?

I got too excited. I never intended to be on anyone's radar but maybe I'm lying. Why the fuck did I do that? I don't want to be perceived as I am, only what one makes of me. I don't know why I did that. Did I really misremember or did I remember too well? I never overthink, only overinterpret. How could I do that? I know I didn't do anything wrong but now the thought of me in somewhere I don't know is nerve-wracking. Also, 111. I keep seeing it. I keep hearing it. Someone said it out loud, repeating back to me the numbers which are interpreted as new beginnings, blessings, and what not. I can't even make this up if I tried so where am I headed now? I feel like the flesh is back in the driver's seat and we are speeding up; into what, I do not know yet. It's exciting.