so this is life <3

It’s currently 4:15 am, and I haven’t slept a bit. I’m sitting on the floor with listening to Foreigner from my cd player and staring at a burning candle. There’s something so tranquil about this. The way the flame is still yet flickers ever so slightly is fascinating. The unevenness of the wax is imperfect yet still beautiful.

All this makes me look back on everything and just realize to myself just how great everything really is. I know I’m not really the optimistic type, especially here, but there’s something about this moment that just brings out the optimist that’s been in hiding for over 5 years now in me. I think about everything that’s happened to me, the good and the bad, and realize how everything I’ve experienced has shaped the boy I am today. I’m aware I’m not a good person, but I have hope. I’m getting better. I’m fixing my mistakes. I’m finding solutions to my problems. That’s a lot more than some people can say they’ve done.

I’m glad I’m still alive.

Anyways song of the week is What A Wonderful World by Louis Armstrong

For the people that need a little hope right now.