my new poem! tw for sensitive topics</3

(!!!PLEASE READ --> THIS IS ONLY FOR ART PURPOSES, IT IS NOT MEANT TO BE PROMOTING SUCH TOPICS, NOT IS IT MEANT TO BE RECREATED IN REAL LIFE!!!) 

ugh ive been waiting for a place to post my poetry.. :') anywayss uhh i wrote a poem about the struggles of depression erm yeah! 

//TW: IMPLICATIONS OF SUICIDE, EATING DISORDERS, SELF HARM//

"changed for the worse"

As I fled to my secure lifeboat, I stared at sea, 

I didn't look back at the people waiting for me. 

My little life out on the water, isolated, and cold, even when I wasn't bothered.

But in the eyes of my family I never came home, 

a child of love, turned to skin and bone. 

Eyes welled with tears, while death was my fear, 

It was my first choice. 

When forcibly sent back home, they tried to help my aching flesh. 

Scars covered the body they tried to scrub clean, 

Extremely painful, I had to plead. 

But they've seen how I changed for the worse, my only quality is depression, not joy, or a song to rehearse. 

For I'm not allowed to thrive how I see fit, survival is the only running bit.