vent

All I wanted to do was watch a silly movie on the opening day as an early bday celebration. 

I never ask for too much in my life; Just wanted to do that and then have a sleepover that day.

They both said they could do it and checked with them multiple times beforehand.

Two days before the premiere, first person cancelled due to 'misremembering the day' and the next day, another friend bailed as well due to 'car troubles'.

I freak out and have a meltdown, barely remembering the voice messages I sent. I apologized for the voice messages multiple times afterwards.

Never said anything that was cruel and only spoke about my feelings, the first one (after some time) said 'sorry I couldn't make it to your playdate, but it would mess with my daily routine' while the other didn't say anything at all.

I'm still hurt over them saying it was a playdate, when they know I regress and try using that term to mock me... they know I'm mentally stuck and can't due too much without help unlike them.

Now, we barely talk as though we were never close to begin with. Probably for the best, considering I feel like I don't need to mask as much as I used to anymore.

Who knew such a simple request could cause me to lose who I considered a best friend...

The other one hasn't spoken to me since then, but I could care less if I'll be honest.

I hope they have the life they deserve. But I hope they learn from this mistake and don't repeat it with another person in their life they claim to care about.