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School is starting again on monday and tbh idk what to do, we made a different schedule for me with the school because I didnt go for 2 months, but I am just so scared to go again.
People definitely formed a worse opinion of me and will ask me questions or avoid me even more. I am scared to get bullied again like the last couple of years. I dont know how I screwed up this badly again after it was going so well, this couldve been the first year of highschool without getting bullied.
I get so overstimulated at school and this isnt going to make my case any better.
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cowboyfinn
Just blog stalking but dude I completely understand.
Idk what grade you're in but I'm a junior in hs right now and what you're feeling I felt my 7th and 8th grade year (covid) and my freshman year (sent away for a bit). I'd love to know more about your situation so I can help you but the best advice I can give is fuck everybody honestly.
Like in 5-6 years when everyone's graduated they aren't going to remember why you left or how they felt about you when you came back or how you looked. What people will remember is your character and how you treated others just be a good person and good things will come your way. Be authentic and yourself and if people don't like that they aren't for you yk? At the end of the day this is your life and your experience so make it as amazing as you can for yourself. OMG AND remember even tho you just came back it is perfectly ok to need days off or find a safe space during lunch to calm down your mind. Personally I have a closed campus (can't leave unless I'm signed out for lunch) and I have my mom come and get me at least once out of the week because it's just too much sometimes, but that ties back to creating a safe and fun life for yourself because you deserve it!!!!
im in my 9th grade but got held back 2 years bcs of my absence lol
I know they wont remember me or remember for what I was like as a person, but everyone just avoids me as much as they can and laugh at me even though I have done nothing to them. I did everything to change myself, i started wearing makeup, dressing differently changed myself so much that everyone around me is confused on what happened for me to be like this now. And yet its not enough for them to even want to sit next to me.
I prefer having people avoid me and move their tables to not sit next to me than to get called names and stuff like the past years. But still its not a nice experience and I have 2 years left
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in 9th grade**
by Mae; ; Report
Oh yeah dude that's understandable do you have any friends that you still talk to even tho you got held back or is everyone just kinda like minding their business? (if that's too personal don't answer) I'm sorry you are having a hard time man. I truly believe highschool is supposed to be like the best time ever cuz you don't get to experience shit like this again yk? I hope your time starts to improve and even tho you have 2 years left enjoy tf out of it. I'm not out justtt yet but I'm very close and it's already feeling miserable lol. Do you have any plans for when you graduate?
by cowboyfinn; ; Report
Also maybe people will grow the fuck up and leave you alone!!! They might not want to interact with you but making that a public thought and picking on you is fucked.
by cowboyfinn; ; Report
Also maybe people will grow the fuck up and leave you alone!!! They might not want to interact with you but making that a public thought and picking on you is fucked.
by cowboyfinn; ; Report
No plans for after I graduate because I am struggling with my mental health alot.
I have 1 friend irl that was from my first school, I went to 3 different highschools because of bullying and absence and didnt make any friends. People somehow just started hating me when I entered on the first day even tho I started with everyone else.
I thought it had to do with my appearance so I changed it to look like them and it still didn’t do anything:/
Possibly I just have something to me that makes people avoid me. And I dont want to be friends with them because just by how they treat me and are in class talking about others people that theyre friends with, I can tell that theyre horrible people but I just wish they would treat me like a human being.
I was at school 1 day last week to pick up some books and instantly got nasty looks from classmates AND people I dont even know?!? With instant comments like “oh she decided to come back” “someone came to school for once” all laughing afterwards
by Mae; ; Report