im sad again

i hate being sad , it just makes me feel like im stuck in a portal that never stops spinning, I just want to fucking make it and constantly create , im fucking ranting because that’s my only escape and when i feel pushed and gravitated away from that then what other point do i have to survive for, i hate waiting to create or having to hold back on creating and putting shit out like bro im losing my mind because this shit is my life and my future depends on it like what the actual fuck bro i just want to fucking cry in a fucking ball and jump off a fucking moonwalk house . BRO FUCK . aight secret universe i see yall at the sugar rush don’t fucking mind me 💒