Yapfest

Yesterday in my first period we did an icebreaker, again, all the questions were things like “what were your best moments of 2023” and “what will you do the same, or differently in 2024?” And all I could come up with was “hate my life less” and “count the days until Friday left just as much as before” frankly I don’t know how much longer I can do this, I find it incredible how much I hate my life, I love everything in it yeah, I’m really lucky to have it the way I do, but school influences my attitude so much that I forgot how good my life is when I don’t go, I’ve been happier, and I got to see my grandma for the first time in 2-3 years, I’ve been spending more time with family, just to get back in the car in this tacky uniform, and come back to this hell, I don’t know how many “make it to Fridays” I can take before I officially lose my marbles, and I know I’m not the only one, on TikTok everyone else has also been realizing how shitty this is.(pardon my French) it’s like all of us are going through some sort of rite of passage, where all of us go through the same revelation that we will probably never look forward to anything other than our bed until our graduation, or until we drop dead. I’m going to go out and say it, today, our American school system trains us to be workers not thinkers, and certainly not happy ones. Hell, today I got a worksheet from my teacher saying “hope you had a good winter break! Hope you are ready to work” work. Not learn, work. I’m going to go out on a limb here, I think I’m going to go batshit insane if I have to keep going like this