past, present and near future (life update?)

i havn't been on here in awhile, so i thought i would do a quick run-down of these past few months!! (tw:transphobia)

freindships!

so starting off, ive ditched like a few friends nd shit because they were toxic (much happier without them btw!!) and i have a new best friend and theyre honestly the best thing that ever happened to me. i met them EXACTLY on july 1st, 2023 (kewl right)??

i dont tend to make much friends because i have anxiety and autism nd its hard to speak with other ppl ig

crushes omg

this is gonna be kind of short because ive only had a few crushes in my life whaha

current: this guy, his name starts with k and hes in my school and tbh i want to marry him on fucking god (i dont even havce his snap)

old; not the k i like niow but omfg i dodged a bullet, like he was transphobic (and still is) to me and treats me like dog shit for being trans.

old; okay so his name started with like s and he was alr, i just lost interest overtime bcs he didnt like me back

then im not gna get into the mini-crushes becasue they dnt rly matter tbh

ex's

tbh i dont know why im adding this, this is from like before 2023 shit. and its gonna be realll short becasue ive only dated like 3 people (and only fro a few days too)

evil ex no.1 ; my ex bsf!! im not gonna go into why i hate her but it was like 2020 i think?

evil ex no.2 ; i dont even know they were like a dmsp cosplayer and we knew eachother for like 2 days and dated for like 1

evil ex no,3 ; i dont even remember his name because it was like kindergarten lmao

music

i shouldn't be able to write this because i failed msuic in school last year but

im learning guitar but im slowly leaning towards drums (i use my dads and my brothers stuff and they let me dw) like i played a bit today and i really really enjoyed it tbh!!

ig cds can be included here sooo heres a list of all the cds i have ig

mcr-tbp

mcr-three cheers

mcr-dd

ptv-cwts

ptv-tjol

ptv-misadventures

radiohead-okcomputer/oknotok

greenday-american idiot

i think thats it (i cant be boitherd to go thryu my cds atm) but i am gonna buy either a sws cd or paramore!

medical stuff :P

this isnt about mental health btw!

so im getting a mri tommorow (scary) and ugm its really fucking eearliy so im gonna pull an allnighter ig? ive had sm theyre just annoying now. (if anyones wondering, november 2022 i had a pretty major knee surgery and i have to get mri's to check how the surgery is going ig) im just kinda nervous bcs this one isnt a routinely chekcup, its because the doctors are kinda concerned idk it was like a month ago frogive me im bad at remembering lol </3

other than that my health is pretty good ig!!

pet health!!

all my pets are pretty healthy, but my dog who is 10 years old is going blind :P hes pretty happy though bcs hes getting spoilt lmao.

fav games :p

i recently bought stardew valley and ive rly been enjoying it ahyya(i alr married sebastian MWHAHA) like its a veryy cute and calming game i love it so much. im thinking abt buying a fnaf game or terraria but idk yet. i might buy terraria bcs i rly like the game but i dont play it cz i dont have it on my laptop :p

conclusion !!

i was gonna add some other things but theyre kinda sad so i might add them on another post another day :P