Whats wrong w me ? :(

ive noticed i have this weird tendency when i get hit with a very dark thing. I end up getting into this sweet, kinda cutesy headspace. Not anything like a kid or like little regression stuff, no. I just become all bubbly and sweet.

its alright, i dont mind it that much... 

it just is a huge differernce.....

usually I'm all tough and mean and manly and stuff all grr >:(
but i end up being kind of... childish?
Its so hard to explain. I get hit with a very heavy realization and become all sweet to everyone and giggly but its not like my depressive episodes.

In episodes, I get broody. I become mean, impatient, snappy. 

Its not depression. Maybe its like, shock?

like how people may be so shocked by something that happens that they just seem like it didnt happen, or how they may feel nothing (like pain)

i dont know :(

this is bugging me

hope i feel better soon