Crushes?

I don't get why crushes are so hard I mean I don't even know why I like the guy💀and I'm too scared to tell him anyway but it's killing me inside so i wanted to type it out somewhere and i just got spacehey so im not sure how people blog or if this is how you even use it but anyway I always see him at school specifically at lunch or in the hallways but this year will be my last year seeing him because he's a senior and I'm only a sophomore so we couldn't have ever worked anyway and I'm pretty sure I'm too young for him sooo yeah I guess it's better off that I don't tell him anyway but it's still a part of me that wants to but I'm too scareddd and its getting out of hand😭